2AM Rants and Delirium

2AM Rants and Delirium

Honestly  though? What else is there to do at 1:31am on the night after you received a Hip arthogram and the steroids will not release their grip on your awakedness!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!   I figured what the hey HEY lets get another blog post in right? RIGHT?....... R I G H T ! ! ! !  

So this is my third Injection and to be completely honest, It actually hurt quite a bit. The first 2 i received i didn't feel a thing and only side effects were High Blood sugars and Not sleeping for about 3-4 nights in a row. Here i am having that same problem now :/ but its OK because in 4 hours when Kaylee wakes up and wants to play i will lay a HUGE super thick comforter down on the floor, lay there and let her crawl all over me playing "dragons"   "playground slide"  and BARBIES! Sooo what, I enjoy playing barbies with her is that such a crime. I mean i have been home with her since she was 4 months old and we have built quite the father-daughter bond.  I would describe our relationship as a "WTF Daddy why cant you lift me up, Are you gonna play with me yet?, When is mommy coming home" Kind of relationship. She loves me to death but its like any relationship whether intimate or family when you spend too much time with a person you take things for granted. You also tend to get sick of each other (In a loving way of course). I'm in no way saying i don't enjoy my time with Kaylee im just saying sometimes it is nice when gramma comes and gets her on Sunday afternoon and The wife is at work all day and i can just watch some football and Veg out.  

Kaylee has been having some really hard times with missing mommy the last few weeks because its just worked out that either kaylees at school, melissa is working, Kaylees sleeping or something is going on.  their schedules are just not lining up lately and kaylee repeatedly expresses her yearning for mommy.  The other day we  missed mommyWife so much we drove up to hagars farm stand/store and got some fried dough with maple cream for Melissa and her coworkers.  I gotta tell you if you have not tried Hagars Fried dough then get out and try it! It is THE BEST in this area.  I also tried a goat meatball at Hagars and cant say that was exactly super awesomely delicious. It tasted  alot like dirty bison meat rolled down a Huge hill of manure. YUMMMMY!!!!  the lady did say it was leaner then chicken and one of the healthiest red meats there is..   Maybe i could put enough BBQ sauce on it to make it edible i dont know, and i don't think ill be trying it anytime sooN!

Looks can be deceiving! 

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BLOG BLOG BLOG@! 11-4-2012

                 

                    Oh my I am starting a NEW blog again? lol... I was trying to decide if i was going to move all my old blog posts over and add them to this site but decided I wanted a new fresh start to my blog. And what better time to start then now.  I just finished up my 18 month straight program at Porter and Chester, Melissa has started working on her bachelors and masters from elms college.   I go on December 6th for a Arthroscopic hip surgery and am really hoping that is my Kick start i need to get back to work.


                      For anyone who never read my old blog or doesn't know exactly whats going on i will  give a REAL quick rundown of the past 3 years in my life.  I worked at c&s for 10 years and hurt my back outside of work. I ended up having Lots of herniated discs and pinched nerves. I had a lumbar fusion which was successful in eliminating the Shooting nerve pain down the right leg.  The Nerve pain on the left remained and I told the doctors it was still there. After 8 months of serious pain i landed in the ER one night in more pain then I've ever had. After tons of tests and almost being sent home i had a VERY bad infection that was in the blood, tissues and instrumentation of the Fusion site. I spend 14 days in the hospital and Was sent home to do 2 months of home IV Antibiotics... Good times :/.    From then to now its been TONS Of PT and tons of doctors appointments and I'm sick of it all. I was sent for MRI of my hip because it was killing me and i have walked with a limp since 2009. The MRI showed multiple Tears on my labrum in my left hip and it showed my top of the femur is shaped weird and destroying the hip socket. The surgery on DEC 6th will be to reshape the femur and repair the labrum! I'm pretty excited for this surgery and holding lots of hope that it will Get me to where i can start walking more and maybe even jogging to get my back better.  I think the most important thing someone needs to accept when they are dealing with Chronic pain is that you will never be pain free. So don't strive to be pain free. I have learned so many ways to adjust my life around my back issues. Going to school was the best thing i could have ever done because it kept me from wasting away at home and having my brain go into hibernation.  My long term goal is to own my own company, I have dabbled with it a bit in the past and hope to get it going within the next 10 years.  

                   

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